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1:23 AM

Seriously feeling like a complete idiot right now, with all that happened and what more
with the fact that I'm blogging when I'm supposed to be studying cause ermmmm yeah
SPM is like...............LESS THAN 40 DAYS FROM NOW!!

I am dead scared.

For trials recently I only got 5As. Not enough.


And my parents don't really have faith in me will be getting 9A+, which added more to my
lack of confidence.
Umy was like..."it's okay, 5As will be enough for you to enter UiTM."
-_-   -_-   -_-"

Umy.....first off, this is just trial okay...........I still have SPM to prove myself.
And UiTM is never an option to me don't you know!
I thought I've told you before that I have this really big dream of furthering my studies abroad.
I know I have ok.
Even I'm at my lowest, I still strongly believe in me, so why can't one of you AT LEAST
pretend to have faith or confidence in me too?
(or is it going to be too much? =_=)

When both my parents don't believe in me, it's like the whole world isn't, too.
So it's gonna be hard.


p/s: this is not another emo post, this is just me not knowing how to express my life


But.......................hard doesn't bring the same meaning with impossible, nay.
I think in some way, the disbelief of my parents towards my ability
really burns my spirit. (membakar semangat, HAHA)



::So hye everyone this is me faking myself to being an optimist again, for the 98327498326th times.





Bye for now.
May your life is blessed, and hopefully won't resemble mine..hehe
Wish me luck for Eys.Pee.Eym.

Importante.

Last two or three weeks were dhfuagfhuhal!!
Trials y'know.
How's trial?
I think for the teras subjects, I did well la.
Chemistry..I can't say but I think I'll no longer fail this subject.
Biology was okay la..like 50-50.
Physics was hell, and AddMaths was the devils. 
They're planning with each other to mess my SPM Trial results. 
Worse is, they may have succeed. Nuff said.


BUT will I allow them or any subject else to..

MESS MY SPM RESULT?

OVER MY DEAD BODY.

Wait no. 
Even if I'm dead I still won't let my SPM result be anything else than 9A+.
FULLSTOP OF ALL FULLSTOPS.

.....

You see..

Achieving 9A+ has been something my friends and I have dreamed of since the beginning.

One of these friends of mine, her results were better than mine all this while.

Recently, she gave up.
Saying she didn't think she could get straight As, what more straight A+s.
She didn't say it directly, but I read between the lines.
We wanted to further our studies...abroad.
Out of the blue she said she wanted to enter a university in Puncak Alam.
Only minimum 7 to 8 As would be needed.


I don't like this, friend.
Why giving up at this point?
I know I can succeed, why can't you think the same of yourself too?



I want to succeed, and I want the same for my friends.
Let's not give up, okay. Let's continue struggling. Let's build our dreams together , again.




I won't let you down. Don't let me down.