21052014 - The day that I make up my mind.

It's 0507, and I still haven't slept.
I've been thinking a lot, thank God, because if I haven't I may not have figured this out.

I seriously, extremely serious, have never been this serious, will further my study abroad.
Maybe not for degree, maybe for Master. And PhD as well.

Big dreams? Yes.
That's my motto. Dream big. AND work toward it.
In the mean time, DON'T FORGET TO ENJOY LIFE TO THE FULLEST.
Because as we all know, we can never turn back time.

I'm only 19 for once. And fortunately I am able to decide what I want to do in the future at this age.
Alhamdulillah for this small step I made this morning.

I have always wanted to study overseas, but never really worked toward it.
This time I'm being dead serious that nothing can stop me and my determination INSHA-ALLAH.

I am not qualified to sit for the Medsi test (which I really don't understand WHY but after some thoughts I realize that it's what I want too -because I don't want to be in teaching profession, and Allah helps me in Its own way -Alhamdulillah), but there so many other options.
It helps me to open my eyes so I can see and observe everything right from the scratch.

This tiny bump cannot stop me from continuing my journey on this road.
I mean, I have dreamed of studying abroad ever since forever!
I won't stop at 19 just because of some messed-up system or whatever it is -not that I care enough.

I believe in Allah and I know I just need to work it out and never give up NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCES ARE and never stop praying because Allah always listens. Always.



-Alive.

Late night, early morning.

I have many big dreams.

I am never scared or afraid of anything in dreaming.
I never think of what the circumstances are, or what might be the obstacles, or will it work for someone like me.
I have never had those kind of thoughts.

I believe nothing is impossible.
With Allah's blessing, NOTHING is impossible.
None of those that I dream.

It's not like I dream someday I want to be able to drink through my hand while watching the tv in my sleep.

All my dreams are big, and achievable. Of course.


Late night, early morning.
What does it mean?
It means that, an end, is basically just a beginning of something new.

I am not leaving the old me, I just want to improve.
If I stay the same, I can never get what I dream.
So yeah. Improve. AND Istiqamah.


What I have learnt recently: The whole idea about changing ourselves just to fit in is just a total stupidity. I had been there few times, ended up not being myself at all, and was bitchy almost all the time even knowing the fact that I would hurt some people.
I learnt my lessons not long after that, which helped me become a better person, and most importantly, helped me to be me. To be happy the way I am. To be grateful for being me.


Life has actually taught me a lot of lessons, though sometimes I think it's being unfair to me.