I have been very disappointed with myself lately.
Mostly I don't really have the clue of why I feel so, but the most recent stupid thing that I did was..
For the past few days my mom kept wanting to go out, and go out with me.
I'm sure she has her own reason, but I don't really feel like going out of the house because I'm such a freaking lazy couch potato (is it couch potato or potato couch)
And though I feel bad for keep saying 'no', I do it anyway.
Yesterday she asked me again to accompany her somewhere and I didn't answer,
I just basically gave out a 'hmm~' which I thought she might have mistakenly took it as a 'yes'.
I went inside my room and after a while I went out and saw my mom were all dressed-up and ready; just waiting for me.
It felt like a burden, I was supposed to just go and didn't even have to think of anything
But instead I still refused to go.
She was just like 'oh..' and waited about half an hour more (I guess it was in case I changed my mind) before she drove out on her own.
About an hour later she came back.
She gave me my finished baju kurung that she picked up from our tailor
I felt so very sorry for not accompanying her I mean it was like the first time she ever asked me anything that way and what's worse was that it turned out she was actually only going to see the tailor
I mean
What's the big deal
Just follow her, you stupid
If you don't wanna come out of car just sit in there
She just needs someone to talk to along the way
And you're the only daughter
How much of an AH can you get!
This is just a simple story but i feel very disappointed with myself and God knows how hard I am trying not to spill my tears right now.
It's just one of those moments where I feel like I don't deserve my parents.
I'm sorry.
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