It really has been so long!!

I am dead, dead, dead busy.

Fullstop.

Got the result already.

Got a 'G' for Chemistry. Pfft. Need to work harder on it.

Add Maths. I was so effing effed up. You know what? Erghh. Hmm I'm not really in the mood of telling you this now, especially at this moment -weekends. But, yeah. I need to let it out of my heart.

There's two sections in Paper2..Section A and of course, section B.

Both answers are supposed to be written on 'exam pad papers' and not on the question paper.

So here's what.

I was careless, I didn't read the instructions, and furthermore there's a lot of space there..

And so I ended up writing the section A's answers, IN THE QUESTION PAPER.

And my teacher wouldn't, and DIDN'T accept my answers.

So I got a 'G' too for my AddMaths.

If he had accepted those answers, I would have gotten 40++ or 50++.

Which would be enough to make me pass lah.

But no he hadn't, so I got 20++.

-The end-

I can't deny it, at that time I was as mad as a mad person..

But...baby..but, behind every cloud there's always a silver lining. Aight?

Until this moment I am still unable to even catch a glimpse of the silver lining, but I know it's there.

And besides, I don't have 100% percent rights to get mad, actually.

It was my fault after all for not looking through the instructions first.

ALSO, if ummy asks why do I got 'G' again for Add Maths, I will have a solid answer.

Heh.

 So much for the positive thinking.

Last but not least;

what a hectic week!

bye!

Minggu lepas dan beberapa lagi minggu-minggu lepas..merupakan minggu-minggu yang sangat EFFed up.

Aku cuba bersabar dan berfikiran positif dengan segala daya aku.

Cuba untuk tak naik marah, tak emosi tak tentu hala.

Istighfar sebanyak mungkin, senyum seikhlas mungkin.

Sangat payah, Ya Allah.. Tersangat payah.

Tak sampai suku pun daripada kawan-kawan aku, yang tetap jadi kawan aku hingga ke saat ni.

Lebih ramai yang lagi rela dengar cakap-cakap orang daripada cakap aku.

Entah apa salah aku.

Betul.

Kalau aku tahu aku ada salah, aku takkan sedih macam ni.

Aku selalu cuba sedaya upaya baikpulih keadaan.

Kau jeling, aku senyum. Hati kata kau gurau je tu.

Hati aku bodoh. Boleh ar kan.

Tapi otak aku tahu makna jelingan kau tu.

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Sekarang baru aku tahu makna kawan.

Yang tetap berpihak pada aku, tetap bersama aku walaupun masa aku susah, difitnah, dicaci orang..

Dan segelintir saja yang macam tu pada aku.

Yang lain? Entah ke mana.

Tapi..

Aku bersyukur masih ada meski segelintir.

Ujian kali ni besar, tapi aku dah terbiasa dengan ujian sebesar ni.

Air mata yang keluar pun tak sebanyak dulu.

Alhamdulillah, aku semakin kuat. Kan?

Setiap yang menimpa aku betul-betul dah buka mata aku sedikit sebanyak.

"Friends in need are friends indeed."

Terima kasih, and let's pray we'll meet each other in Jannah.   =)

Today the reality..sets in.

And it hurts.

I was stupid for letting my tears to fall down because of you, friend.

I was stupid. I hate it when I think stupid, and act it.

I'm sorry guys, but I'm not continuing my previous post about my dorm-mate who has left.

She disappoints me. Disappoints all of us.

So the reality really does show up at last, nay.

Still, we used to be friends.

She was such a good friend..when she was good.